I'll be honest - I'm scared. I've been sick and still have this cough. I've had to call the surgeon's office every day since last week with a status report to make sure I'm getting better because they don't want to do surgery if I'm too sick. This morning I talked with the surgeon and let him know I feel fine and the sinus stuff has improved 99% but that I still have this niggling cough. I've been so worried that it will be post poned but he said it's a go unless the anesthsiologist says no tomorrow morning. Maybe another day of antibiotics will knock the sinus stuff out for once and for all. Please everyone -known and unknown, put in some good thoughts for me. My extremely accurate (she's been on about everything of import) astrological report for the month says 3 days within January 20 are the best days for medical procedures. http://www.astrologyzone.com/

The week in general has been hard. Our godson, a wonderfully sweet atttentionally challenged 22 year old has much drama going on this week and starts college today and has been most unhelpful around the house despite his many promises to do x, y and z. We both lost our tempers last night and I was reminded that when I was in my 20s I co-owned a rare book business with a woman who was in her late 30s - funny, brilliant and dying of terminal cancer. I was remembering last night my absolute obliviousness to what she was going through and her ocassional erruptions of irritability that annoyed me...I am not dying of terminal cancer and I am long enough past my thirties to know better than to expect a 20 some odd year old to understand what frankly eluded me in my 20s and eludes me now much of the time.

I have tried to make some progress with the Sedona Method and some days it's so easy to do the following, which is the basic method:

Can you let it go?
Would you let it go?
When?

Applying these questions to things that are temporary irritants or to long-standing issues has actually helped me, but between PMS, some inevitable feeling sorry for myself and my frustrated attempts to control everything - well, I have had better days. Generally, despite a hang dog tone I am essentially optimistic about the surgery and what they'll find.

If you want to play along using the Sedona Method - just keep recycling the info through asking the 3 questions until 1) you're sick of it (even then you will undoubtedly feel some relief)
2) You've been successful in letting it go. Obviously things come and go and you may find yourself dealing with the same thing next week but my personal experience is that it's less intense. So, for instance - Terrell's pounding up the stairs after I reminded him that taking the compost and recycling were things he offered to do and he shuld not say he's going to do things if he has no plan to follow through.. I had several opportunities to "let it go" but once I identified that I was playing my arguments/anger over and over again in my mind I did ask the questions. And, after feeling my brain pulled back into the fray about 6 times I let go. Going over and over a problem just reifies it as a problem - a horrible conclusions for a therapist! But, I believe this is often true. Anyway, I can let it go and I can do it now.